A jouRney TowaRds the Futue

2007-07-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

BYE BYE www.life-sux-sometimes.blogspot.com

2007-07-08T00:06:00.000-07:00

SOME FREAKING BASTARD ruined my mood to blog.

2007-06-28T09:48:00.000-07:00

So i reached school around 8.30 for my gems, only to know that gems class was cancelled. blaa. and while waiting for my class ppl to finish classes, i am here to blog.

Things have been quite a hectic run for me these few days. you leave home at 8, only to realise that when u reach home, its 8 already. Time really files. Napf test dates are out and its in november, which means that i have 5 months to ensure that my weak arms can pull a min of 6 pull ups to attain a grade c. shiat!

While i was talking to my friends the other day, i just realised that a relationship cannot be measured by the amount of time spent together. Just one day, and it can ruin yr relationship that lasted for a few years. As I was in MJR observing the cadets of mine saying :" A, you like B lo!!" this kinda sentences, it actually reminded me of my secondary school days and that felt sweet. Now that you are in a different instituiton studying, with such a different environment, you cant all this sweet and innocent thinking. One may say, so? its such a childish thought, but in actual fact, you know yourself that it will bring a smile to your face when you are remembering about the things you have done in the past.

Memories? they are just like storybooks. One fine day, you will feel bored and take one out and read them. Isnt it?

In another few months,I will be offically labelled as the graduted student from Singapore Polytechnic. My classmate posted a question while we were on the way home. Will you miss your institution that you are currently in now once you graduateD? That left me in deep thought. What are your views? Haha.

2007-06-20T22:57:00.000-07:00

I realised I have been blogging reguarly these few days. Bah, so random. But anyway, here I am again.

Went with huimin to ecp to jog today. Naturally, our Miss Ng was late, so i went walking along the sea-side and found a bench and sat there to think.

Min came and started running. Damn, i must admit that my physical fitness wasn't like the past anymore. Detoriate lah. So i should start to train now. Sunday, here i come. So we jog and jog and finally rested. Was kinda tired lah. CMI! Had dinner and went home.

So as i was sitting at the bench, i finally came to a conclusion that what will stay, will eventually stay, what that will leave, it will not stay. It was a beautiful memory and story for all of us, but its not gonna stay isnt it? Tme will tell some things.

DAMN THE BACKACHES AND LOUSY FITNESS!

2007-06-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

I was watching the tv when i saw the deal or no deal advertisment and it was saying: hurry! download the advertisment form now! and i was like okaY~!

so.. i downloaded the form, and printed it. all 16 pages. sat down and wanted to fill in the form (cause i was so excited abt adrian pang telling me the banker 's offer). and!

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priangs. heart break.

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then i read on...

2. Neither you nor any member of your immediate or extended family or anyone living in your household is
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my aunt is working at mediacorp.

double priangs.

2007-06-15T13:05:00.000-07:00

while waiting for my project mate to come, i decided to blog! haha.

and the topic of the day is : sleeping on public transport.

Throughout my 18 , close to 19 years of living, I swear to you or myself, I have always tried not to sleep on public transport. I would say out of 10 times, only 0.5 times, i would fall asleep. The reason is very simple. You wouldnt know how you will look like when u sleep there or whether by sleeping, yr actions will affect the people around you.

Take for instance this afternoon when i was on the way to school, this particular man sat beside me and made himself comfortable. Moments later, he went into his dreamland, for your info, he was sitting with his leg crossed, his shoe platform was facing my thigh. so he went into his dreamland, his head went onto my shoulder and his shoe platform keep touching the side of my thigh. -_-. (HE WAS A MAN!) I turn to my side to look at him and .... he was drooling. (heng the thing nv touch me) so i stood up ( who wouldnt) and he went back to his upright position.

SEE! MY POINT! I have no discrimination against people who sleep, but even if u wanna sleep make sure your image is there. andd ... dun touch ppl's thigh.

ok, my group mate havent reach.

one more week of holis left.

2007-06-01T14:42:00.000-07:00

yawns! now in school library, studying alone! haha. can you believe that JARED KANG is studying in the library alone? ok, anyway, back to the main point. I am here to share a scene with you guys. Imagine u are studying at a desk and opposite you sits a guy and a lady. It would be good if they are studying but they like doing PDA (public display of affection)and behaving like a pair of chipamzees, plucking fleas out of each other hair and laughing at each other.

Luckily the lady left already. or god knows if the hairs will all be plucked out.

Back to study.

2007-05-31T22:20:00.000-07:00

here i am. feelin moody and down. with so many things bottled inside, yet when i need company, i have none. i need a god. seriously. i need a god that i tell my problems to and with flick of fingers, i am free of them. then i will be at a exotic island with coconut drinks and wind blowing at my face while i lie on the couch and relax.

i need that.

it is disgusting to be stuck between both people of different stands.

happy vesak day.

2007-05-26T21:06:00.000-07:00

elearning is over. wasnt really happy with the grades considering my classmates all redo but i was just plain lazy so i just settled for the 80s. lol. its been a boring 3 days. i stayed at home for 3 days lah! man, when u stay at home for sucha long period, it makes u emo. so when u are emo, u tend to think and think.

HA!

so i just realise, my friend actually told me before, heaven is fair. it may give u something. but it will take away something. Thinking of it, it may be true afterall. a girl may be damn pretty, but u may not know if she is a scheming bitch. okay, its just an example, so dun worry if its you. its not. its back to school on mon and MST is coming! argh!! no sense of any motivation to study. but i will. god knows how am i suppose to survive on mon considering my lessons are on 10 to 9! 9 PM! when i freakin leave sp, i will be so excited cause i am able to see the night view of SP! -_-|||. yea right.

so yea, poly ppl, all the best for upcoming MST! work hard peeps!

2007-05-24T22:54:00.000-07:00

ok,i am here to update. doesnt seem like anybody is here to view anyway.

Finally, the passing out ceremony is over. Looking at them pass out and looking at their bunch of faces, it actually remind me of what we use to be in the past.
Back in 2004, we step down in the canteen, with our berets on and doing the proper fall out and saluting with OC and CIs passing out with us. It indeed brought back memories. All the best to the graduating NCOs.

On the other hand, i kept thinking abt some stuff recently. I dun understand why people can be that irresponsible into dealing with things, as to doing only things that are beneficial to them. I understand that humans are selfish, selfish to this extend? It's unbelievable. Why cant people think of the actions that they do? Dun they realise that the actions that they do is not just gonna affect themselves but the people around them?

Just hope that things will get better la.

Oh yea, abit shoutout to ANG TZE SHUEN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRUDDER! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNFANG TOO!

2007-05-11T22:03:00.000-07:00

a big shout to MELISSA LIM: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTEST! HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING YR DAY ! HAHA.

and thank god that kenneth is ok. be safe okay bro!

2007-05-07T19:27:00.000-07:00

friendships.some ppl come and go. some ppl make an impact in your life. some ppl just hope that they can create an impression. whatever it is, doesnt it always boil down to one fact? respect and cherish yr friends. if taking ppl for granted esp friends, and saying things that will pull their morale down and hurt them, is that correcT?

when u have hurt the other party, isnt it a little too late to say sorry?

morale of the story: treat yr friends with more respect! =)attitude shows it all.

2007-04-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

i am back. fucked up week. school projects. lousy electronic appliances. lap top got rebooted because of a stupid trojan. all data gone.

praying for a better week.

2007-04-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

after 9 weeks of Industrial Training Programme, it is finally over. some ended earlier like yest, some ended later like today. i ended today. here goes my reflection:

this 9 weeks. i am glad i was posted to my company. still remember 2 months ago, i was with wei hwang and ql visiting my work place. when i first saw the place, my heart sank. haha. itp offically started on 12th of feb, i reached my office at 8.20 when i was supposed to start at 9, so i began to walk around the whole area, pluck up my courage around 8.40 and went in and i go, hello. i am here for my attachment. haha. sounds stupid. this ITP made me realise lots of things. politics, improved my measurement. met great ppl like my supervisor Kelvin. i know i am not what the company expects of me, but he was kind and patient to guide me through whenever i have questions and stuff. great senior. great mentor. alice, the accounts manager, kinda bitchy at times but she really take cares of people. though she use hard words, but you know she cares, like for example, she will tell the bangalas that this month she gonna cut the salary, but in the end, she nv did. remember the $25 bucks? she said to me: next time go out mus be careful of money, the money wun be deducted. dun worry." its not abt the money, but that made me felt better. adam and erik, my both bosses, a little impatient at times, but taught me really good ssoft skills as to how to deal with customers or clients.

during this ITP, i do come across weird things. like a project of a 2 storey bungalow, and guess what, a lift will be installed in that bungalow. how rich is that damn guy.

so here i am. school gonna start on mon. back to studies. feeling good but at the same time, feeel weird that u are not gonna work again. damn. haha.

my work place for 9 weeks.

2007-04-11T14:21:00.000-07:00

damn, it really doesnt feel good when it comes to matters of money. Was out with a contractor to get some supplies and he passed me a stack of 50 bucks that my supervisor passed him. total pieces was 9. when i went back to the office, i passed him the change, and it was short of 50! argH! i so regret i didnt count the total no of pcs before i left office. now i gotta pay half of it with my pathetic pay. not that i dun wanna pay or feel sore abt it, but i felt so guilty abt it, that the contractor mus pay for me. and he told my supervisor, "i pay all the 50" and he left the office looking pissed. argh. i should be more careful with the money man! damn!

why mus this kind of thing happen when my attachment is ending?

2007-04-09T21:11:00.001-07:00

1 more week! YES!

or rather..

5 more days! YES!

2007-04-03T20:35:00.000-07:00

i am here. haha, its april already! seems like it was last week that i was at ecp countdown. oh nvm, haha. last 2nd week of attachment. wasnt a good start for me yest, got in the office and i got nagged already. blablabla. haha. my LO came yest! haha. when u are stuck in that office for like so long, its good and feels good to see yr lecturer, so i asked my LO to the coffeeshop to talk instead of sitting at the office, lest the ppl want to complain me what. so i yada yada at my LO, haha. Mr. Ng 's a nice man. after the yada yada, he went to speak to my supervisor, and i asked him what my supervisor say and he told me:" still okay what!" haha. gosh, at that moment, i pondered awhile and i feel quite fortunate. as in, they arent really bad ppl or bossy ppl. and they are quite nice to me. shall do my reflection post abt this ITP after everything is over, which is like next fri!

tml's half day off cause of the gems thing. told them i wanna register and i dun think they want me to use their slow internet so yea. haha, going to work only in the afternoon!

this week i suppose is gonna pass damn fast, after tml will be like thurs then, fri is public holis! haha. then sat should be free and last week of attachment starts.

am i looking forward to it? i dunno. haha.

2007-03-25T22:28:00.000-07:00

I am here to update. damn. i dunno why am i feeling weird physically. like its damn bloated. argh. that why i drank ENO just now and yucks. its damn disgusting lah. i still have half a cup to finish. went bugis and simlim today. after that went orchard. came home and took a nap and i woke up feeling moody. haha. weird me. 3 more weeks to end of attachment! counting down.

2007-03-20T21:48:00.000-07:00

Today's the first time of many things. ok, maybe two.

Firstly, I didnt stay in the office the whole day today. was out the whole afternoon. Went to the building that my company constructed to help my boss in the presentation of Interior Design. So apart from standing there and holding the boards for my boss, it was a good exposure. i observed how my boss presented. Man, he sure how to make those nuns and and guys happy. (its a buddhist free clinic) anyway, the place is so near to mjr, and i dun even know it. haha.

Secondly,

I was walking from the busstop home today when i saw a damn beautiful Mazda convertible coming towards my direction. As always, i stared as the car when it zoom past me. It was a lady driver and guess what i saw? She is digging her nose as she drives. DAMN!

ok. bye.

2007-03-16T21:12:00.000-07:00

suddenly i have the mood to blog, so here i am. haha. nth's been interesting. met up with the guys yest to celebrate min's bday! MIN! ACT 19 OK! haha.

these few days i am feeling damn weird. its just a weird feeling, i dunno how to describe it.. it just feel like there is something missing. like one of my organs is not working or something. life goes on anyway.

4 more weeks of attachment! yay!! haha. actually, i am quite fortunate that i am in that company. so yea, shouldnt be so happy. but yea, studying is so much better. school rocks.

hope that feeling hurry go away.

maybe i was nothing. to you.

2007-03-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

I got a new wife already. Gonna treat her with the utmost respect and will cherish her till she wants to leave it. Anyway, I hope it will last lah.. like around 5 years. *pray*

want me to introduce her to you? Introducing my new wife:

there.except my wife is white in colour.

what were u thinking?

2007-03-04T22:22:00.000-08:00

its been a " i dunno " week for me. in a flash, its gone. dunno what happen or etc. the only thing that i felt excited was to take MC on fri. haha. didnt feel like going to work and had to go down and settle some disagreements in the unit. after fri training, i come to a conclusion that there will always be unhappiness in a decision , even if it is perfect. met up with ah jie, guihua and ac for dinner. was kinda spoiled by a stupid phone call lah. but nvm, the dinner was nice. haha.

IT fair is finally coming. then i will have a nice flat screen and a nice cpu!! finally ok. i have been using this comp of mine for 5 years. been reformatted dunno how many freakin times. hope i can have good deals at the IT fair. if there are cheap laptops, i am sure gonna get one. hehe. then after that i will be damn broke.

another week of work is starting again. counting down! 6 more weeks.

i so feel like going back to school. siao.

2007-02-21T20:06:00.000-08:00

CNY IS OVER! okay la, by right it should last 15 days. so why didnt the government gives 15 days of holidays? god, tis like so fast. and i need to report to work tml already. thinking of it, so sian. 7 more weeks !! god knows how i am gonna survive la.

on the other hand, its quite fortunate i am still here blogging. the past few days were damn fuked up. the comp didnt work as i want it to. make me curse and swear. so i wanna get a new comp with my angbao money. hope the IT fair faster come then can have a new comp.

work suck.

2007-02-16T23:32:00.000-08:00

after 5 days of torture, i am back. okay la, it wasnt really torture. but it is boring. B-O-R-I-N-G. was working attachment starting this week, overall, my colleagues are okay, but they can be quite unfriendly sometimes. they bought a new comp for me! haha. its even better than the comp in my house. argh. did some measurement, play alot of spider solitare at work, and lots of pinball. so you guess how slack i am. but i realised something, office job is definetly a no no for me. i dun like it. so i guess i wouldnt be doing what i am doing now in future. haha.anyway, i received ang bao from my boss and a sub contractor. haha. they are stingy.

met up with the long time no see cherriann wong and melissa lim and of course, ah heng and wh. went for CNY reunion dinner. haha. so after deciding for a damn long time, we finally settled for pizza hut! i like the new year pizza, but the rest didnt like it. dunno why. its nice! haha, chit chat chat chit here and there. it feels good to be with them. haha. and you ppl, you better visit here or i will shout at you next time for neglecting my blog! ESP CHERRIANN WONG FROM THE PHILLIPINES!

new year is comin!! haha. ang bao! sound of money ringing, kaching! i need a new comp. pls!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS!

2007-02-10T23:10:00.000-08:00

i was practically on my knees today. haha. DID SPRING CLEANING~! i swear this is the first year that i got myself involved so much in spring cleaning. i clean practically everything. even the windows, i went to wipe. now its sparkling clean. haha. was so dead after the cleaning but it felt worth it. *grins* went down for dinner with family and aunt. adults, they are so impatient, its only half an hour because the place was so busy and they complain and complain... went home. blah. i was enlighten again. haha.

changed me.

i seriously think i should paint my room. the colour of the room suck.

one more day of freedom left. and work starts.

2007-02-09T10:42:00.000-08:00

changed my skin. apparently there is something wrong with the old one. anyway, its not done up yet. i wanna remove the navigation bar! anybody can help? and in firefox, it looks okay. but in Internet explorer, the tagboard and stuff are all down below.. anyone knows how to solve?! tell me okay!thanks alot.

2007-02-08T16:05:00.000-08:00

its freedom after days of mentally toture, physicaly too. yeap ladies and gentlemen, it was the end of the examS! like finally. i dunno if i will do well, but it doesnt feel as bad as the last two semester. haha.

what's been happening? went to jue dui superstar 2007 at the indoor stadium on sun nite. i was so kind to invite ts to go with me. haha. anyway, was kinda disappointed in the results lah. diya should have won because she was better at the stadium. and cao ge should have sang a few more songs! darn, make me go all the way there sing one song. damn stupid lah. went for supper with ts after that went home.

mon to tues was mugging for test. like i said, its mental torture. anyway, with teh exams over, it means that 2nd year is over too. and year 3 of the poly life is gonna start soon. man, time files. which means i gonna see whether i will get my option or not. pls let me get it.

immediately after the test, went out with jp yest. haha. went to relax relax, that guy was saying shit lah, results comin out and blabla. haha. meh meh told me the same thing too. i dun blame them for complaining. made me remember when i went back to mjr to take my Os.

to the Os ppl: it will be over soon, regardless of whether you did well or not, just live on with life. make decisions that your really are happy with. all the best to you tml! haha.

itp is starting damn soon, went to talk to my LO, felt much better after that.haha. so i typed my letter today and send it to my LO, ah jie was saying why i like so eager abt it. maybe i am exciteD? haha.

slacked at home today. somebody date me for dinner or something these few days.

2007-02-03T23:30:00.000-08:00

when i was alone today, i thought of something and i felt enlighten.

i realised that one shouldnt hope that someone would acknowledge the efforts put in by himself if he were to do something for him/her/them. or it would have negative effects coming into his mind.

recently, i dunno what's the reason i am feelin damn moody. argh. hope this feeling will be gone soon.

after 11 am on wed, i will be free. free for like 4 days before my attachment starts. before i need to go work at the pathetic shop house. argh.

BMT and PM1 be gone! pls!

went converse sale today. haha. was quite satisfied with myself. bought my new pair of shoes for CNY and replenish my polos. haha. accompanied kenneth to bugis and army market. what to do. see he so pitiful like only 2 days can come out.haha. i am still not quite used to his botakness. haha. heard stories abt his camp. bla bla. went home. was damn tired and went for nap. went to collect the superstar ticket from my aunt and bla bla. and here i am blogging. BMT notes better get in my head lah! argh!
so at least i wouldnt feel guilty when i am at the indoor stadium tml. i hate the companion tml lah. argh. its gonna be so stupid.

shall stop here. mug mug mug~

2007-01-27T23:03:00.001-08:00

finally i have the mood to blog. realised its one week since i blog already. nobody cares anyway. blah, wasnt fair to our school. ppl having study week and we are having test week. therefore, have been chionging my papers till like 3 am every night. gosh. it was tiring. but i am glad test week is over and now i have to face exam week. thank god it starts on thurs. then at least i can rest till tommorrow and start the hell again.

was damn disappointed with my workplace. i went to see see look look yest and i expect to find a building and maybe my office would be in the building. BUT guess what i saW! i saw a shop house and it has a signboard saying my company's name! argh! not that i am looking down on it or what.. but i expected something better. now i know why i am given such a pathetic pay.

i seriously think my luck aint good for this month. met up with so many stupid nonsense. argh.

with my pay, and my allowance, and my CNY (hope got alot) money, i wan to get myself a new comp and a new mp3. for your info, my mp3 died already. may it be blessed in where ever it is going. its time you go too. haha.

ladies and gentlemen,welcome my new mp3 to be:

beauty.

better luck pls come soon... *pray*

2007-01-20T14:07:00.000-08:00

tests and exams are like coming up again. its so fast. yet... i dun have the motivation to study. anyway, after this post, it should be studying!!

posting is because i found this really nice video on youtube. watch it:

this was the original singer of cuppycake.

haha. adorable.

now I am done~!

2007-01-14T22:01:00.000-08:00

One of my fans told me to update. Haha.

Random Thoughts.

Friends. I personally feel that we should treat friends with respect. As friends of others, it is always necessary to make them feel assured and trusted. Those ppl that uses friends are bastards and bitches.

On the other hand, i kinda slacked my weekend throughout.Argh, should have start studying.

2007-01-12T20:40:00.000-08:00

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2007-01-12T01:04:00.000-08:00

I shall blog because today is a very special day.

*drum roll*

OUR AH HENG IS GOING TO NS TODAY!! HAHA. ALL THE BEST TO YOU AH BRO! DUN WORRY, YOU CAN MAKE GREAT FRIENDS THERE. AHHA. Those people who know him and see this post, at least send him an sms to make him feel better ah. AH HENG, go inside and come out be a man. then u can take care of girls. haha!

His hair is going away...:

random thots.

dun think you are that great.

2007-01-07T19:49:00.000-08:00

I just realise that i really don't have luck in 4d lah. I bought 2212 last time, came 2213. This time, I bought 0601, it came 0701!! what the hell!

min, maybe I need yr help. haha!

2007-01-07T12:40:00.000-08:00

HELLO! I am back. was at chalet from Friday to Sunday. Hmm, should do a sum up for the chalet yea? Haha. here goes...

Firstly, my thanks.

Thanks to those who turned up for the chalet. The guys- Ql, Ashley, Yixian, Tze Shuen and lastly, our very special star, Kenneth Heng. The girls- Sherilyn, Huimin, Kaiwen and Meli. Thank you for coming guys. Really appreciate it.

Some people that i want to thank in particular.

Ashley- Thanks for lending us so many things, Xbox, Laptop, your movies. BUT, dun ever think of running the naked mile in Singapore. Haha.

Sherilyn - Thanks for all the things you have contributed in the chalet. Your cookies, toothbrushes, soap, snacks. Thanks for being the finance manager. I know you endured alot of shit in this chalet. So, thanks for all that. It's okay that you are not there after that, I understand, so dun feel guilty okay. Don't worry.

Yixian - Thanks for trying to make this chalet a possible one. I know you have fork out more money than most of us. I know you will not really take it to heart when we use you as a form of laughter. So, thanks for being understanding. =)

Weihwang - Haha! though you are not able to turn up for the chalet DUE TO SOME UNFORESEEN CIRCUMSTANCES, i really appreciate that you suggested this idea in the first place, and helped collect the money from the people. Last thing, thanks! for pushing the sai gang to me ah. HAHA! Joking lah. =x.

There, my list of thanks. Done.

Random Thoughts.

Honestly, its tiring. I don't know man. It is quite difficult to just let go this bunch of people that I had been through with. But, can i still feel good and keep it going? Lemme think about it..stecdpree elef dton.

Should end here. DAMN! School is reopening again! ARGH! 12 weeks is gonna start again.

2007-01-02T14:07:00.000-08:00

First post of 2007, haha. and a new skin to go with it. haha.

countdown of 2007.

i spend my countdown with a bunch of my bestest friends. ah heng, weihwang and ah min. haha, did really enjoy my self by doing things tat we would normally do during childhood. like blow stupid bubbles. play with sparkles. talk, play donkey. do forfeits. haha! it was fun. macdonalds breakfast was damn super yummy.

my new year resolutions:

to train up for nafa test.

to get good results.

to boost up the unit.

to be richer!! ( maybe i will strike 4d/toto)

lots more. just be contented of what i have bah

hope you are happy.

2006-12-31T20:53:00.000-08:00

Last Post of 2006 officially.

2006, a memorable year. first thing that came to my mind was, isnt 2006 a little too fast? its like gone suddenly. its like i was still celebrating chinese new year weeks ago.

this year, i had lots of experiences that i will cherish.

still remember sec 1 camp 2006? it was the camp that i most enjoyed. lots of fun, lots of laughter. and lots of friendships made. the yixian ring tone that woke up all of us during the 2nd morning when we were darn tired. the npcc sec 1 camp that most ncos were regretted to look back cause of some idiots. the first atc that i went and made the first guy cried in my CI life.

studies. i kind of regretted not working hard for my semesters in year 1 and the first half of 2006. well, to console my self, at least i did put in effort during the 2nd part of the year but it was mentally torturing lah. considered having 12 weeks of lessons at one go.

you. you were the first. but sadly it didnt end well. thanks for adding colours to my 2006.

friends. thanks to all those friends that have been with me in 2006. enduring my nonsense and listening to my problems. shout out to wh, min, sher, kenneth, huifen, yingjie, val, junpei.. lots more that i really wanna thank. you know who you are. you guys rock.

2007 a fresh start that i want to make an impact in.

maybe i am gonna make a new link or something. but i will still keep this blog. ahaa. we shall see.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!~

2006-12-29T09:05:00.000-08:00

forget to say something

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MR HUANG JUNPEI!you suck. haHA!!joking lah..

2006-12-29T08:48:00.000-08:00

things aint the same anymore. shan't elaborate. you guys get what i mean.

anyway, went to watch the curse of the golden flower. guys will love it. girls will love it too, cause of jay zhou and chow yun fatt. the end. haha.

忽然之间
天昏地暗
世界可以忽然什么都没有
我想起了你
再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候怀念你

我明白
太放不开你的爱
太熟悉你的关怀
分不开
想你算是安慰还是悲哀
而现在就算时针都停摆
就算生命像尘埃
分不开我们也许反而更相信爱

如果这天地最终会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆没有你.

2006-12-24T05:49:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i think this is gonna be a damn quiet christmas. haha. anyway, its kinda peaceful. slacked around the whole day. went aunt's house, grandma's house. was kinda enjoyable.

seriously, everytime when i wanna blog, i got lots of things in my mind, before that i planned what i was going to say but when i come to the keyboard, it went " poof" haha.

had steamboat buffet with the NPCC of mjr last fri. after the buffet, it made me realised lots of things. it strived me harder to improve the unit. but how..? its going to be a difficult process and time is running out. god damn. why do we have attachment at the most important time.

went to CIBTC d06 passing out parade. haha. the parade was kinda turned off. didnt really enjoy it. during the dinner reception, they played the video for the d06 ppl. watching the video, it brought back lots of memories in my CI course. the residential, the non residential, the atc. the scoldings. mental torture. haha. memories that are bitter are sweet to remember.

thinking of which, 2006 is coming to an end. will sum up my year when its nearing. till then.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

the J05 video:

you guys are the best.

2006-12-19T07:45:00.000-08:00

doing low down things like hacking into programs and cheating on people and u want ppl to respect you? crap man. talking sweet nothings can make u achieve great things? wake up.

i just cant stand ppl who think they know the world. i just cant stand ppl who says:" i can do it" but in the end, sit there and shake leg. i also cant stand ppl that get what they always want and throw a temper when they cant.

so....

maybe i should sit on them.

hehe.

2006-12-16T06:40:00.003-08:00

human relations are so damn difficult to control and maintain. different people will have different opinions on you. some people may like you, some people hate you to core. but isnt it difficult to keep wearing a mask infront of people. isnt it tiring?

misunderstandings lead to another misunderstandings. what comes around goes around. when will it ever stop? poeple dun look at their own mistakes, they look at other people mistake. is that correct?

so many questions. no answers.

sleep forever. the solution.

2006-12-13T04:40:00.001-08:00

take a breather and come here to update before going to prepare for my script for tml presentation.

realise i have not been blogging for quite sometime. bah.. some sentences to sum it up abt how i feel this few days.

i hate people who think they are the world.

i hate people who are damn fake.

i love old couples who take care of each other.

bah. i dunno what to write already. holidays are coming! finally!

2006-12-03T22:36:00.000-08:00

finally i am here to blog. oh yea, my mbw got a 68. damn, a c. so i shall do better in semester exams. at least this is only the term test. damn. still feel sour about it.

anyway, i dread school lah. boring boring boring. holis better come fast. at least i can have a good rest.

actually wanted to go SITEX today. reached expo and the queue to go into the carpark is like damn long, so dad gave up and drove us to simlim. lols, something happen that was damn funny lah. my dad wanted to park at the fu lu shou complex, so he made a turn to the right to enter the carpark, the carpark attendant ( a female in her 50s, old and proud) told him to wind down the window and told him he cannot turn like that and tell him to make a u turn and come back. saying that, she moved a sign labelled:" CARPARK FULL" infront of the car to stop it from moving. naturally, my dad just reverse and made a U turn. when he was approaching the carpark again, we saw a toyota corolla doing what my dad did initially and was allowed in the carpark! like wth rite! when my dad want to enter using the correct way again, the old woman moved the sign infront of him again and went to sit down, looking away as if living in her own world. my dad got fed up and horned her. like damn loud lah. but she pretended not to hear it and continue to live in her own world. HA! my dad got fed up and went down the car and quarrelled with the woman. i think the woman got scared (looking at how big sized my dad is and the number of passerbys looking at her) and she keep telling my dad:" listen to me explain.. blablabla.. blablabla. " so we won and got in the carpark! ha. damn stupid lah the woman. if you are the driver, what would you do? hmm.. haha.

anyway, went to simlim. finally bought my RAM already! now my comp is 512! haha. i know lah, its still little but i am contented. ahha. went for dinner, grandma house and went home.

customer service in Singapore is really terrible lah. out of 10 shops i went, i am only satisfied with the service of 2 shops. bought my SD ram for 50 (256) and DDR ram for 44. haha. cheap prices.

(imitating gurmit singh in Singapore Idol.) ladies and gentlemen, i have a very important announcement to make and i will not repeat again..... here it goes..

its monday again.

2006-11-23T21:42:00.000-08:00

damn it. i got back my PM1 and it is another lousy result. its a C again! god. last paper would be MBW. pls, let it be at least a B. and i wun be like some ppl where they are so damn argh. pls lah, is that little marks gonna make a huge difference in yr papers? anyway, i hate ppl who despise the others when their friends got the better grades than them. it sucks. pls lah, ppl can get better than u de okay! dun ever look down on them. i shall not be a turtle and will get out of my shell, this is my blog. i rant what i want here.

humans, are they really that horrible? yes, there are backstabbing, disloyal ppl, bitches, bastards around. but think abt it, isnt it all around? isnt that life? i personally dun think that it is wise saying that :" oh, this guy backstab me, so i should take my revenge and make more ppl hate him" does it help? when will revenge ever end? being a human, to me, i tend to look life the happier way. i dun like to give a damn abt ppl who complain and whine abt everything, and yet despise ppl at the same time. i dun like ppl who keep having negative thots in their minds like how tiring life is and how tiring relationships with ppl around are. its okay to feel that sometimes, but always? definetly a NO NO! wake up humans who are like that.

you know who you are.

done sayig my piece and i miss you hell loads.

2006-11-22T07:15:00.001-08:00

damn. i am like quite unsatisfied with my MST. though i made improvements lah. got back 3 papers and i only got a B and got 2 Cs! and one of the Cs is like 69! so damn fed up. ask the lecturer give me one more mark to upgrade, she die die also dun wan. anyway, tml will be getting back PM1. gosh, that is one scary paper. pray it will be a B at least. pls!

went with kenneth, junrong, his friend and weihwang to orchard today cause they shopping for their prom clothes. haha. clothes nowadays are so damn expensive. saw sister meh meh aroound orchard like for 4 times. fated rite? lols. they bought clothes i sulked. partly because i am so broke but i feel like buying clothes. so tzesheun, kwek, ql and yx came. we went to watch casino royale (wh and kenneth paid for my ticket. *grinis* , will return when i got money!) went home after the show. the show was okay lah. james bond movies are like action, romance, babes, no hunks. but this time, its a bit pervertic. james bond:" to the left! yes! to the left!" ha! that was crap.

man, my phone went for fixing! its so troublesome without my phone! stupid. nokia, pls call me soon okay!!

i miss my phone. and you too.

2006-11-17T23:01:00.000-08:00

I have taken my shower and i am here blogging. ok, that was a lousy intro. anyway, MST week is over! like finally, man, i think the papers are damn easy if i have studied enough, which means i didnt think i have studied enough and i wun score in the MST. shiat.

went to watch grudge 2 yest. was at cityhall when i saw this pervert near the staircase. oh well, he look rather mentally unsound so i didnt blame him. but the most extreme thing he did was he unzipped his pants! lol, because he saw a girl and he took out his camera and took the photo of the her without hiding his intention. god. okay. anyway, grudge 2 was like abit boring, sorry to the ppl who went without wanting to see it. came home, slack, went to airport to fetch my bro from hongkong.. man, he bought lots of stuff, some of which is useless( as i expected). but i like the shoes he bought. it was nice. haha. went for supper after that at yong he. went home and slept like a log.

today was the last paper of MST! yes! woke up at 9.30 to study, gave up at 1. went to school. test, and went orchard. man, heng i dressed correctly. went suntec, went kallang, went home. zzz, i am tired.

what is the feeling of sleeping forever?

2006-11-17T07:50:00.001-08:00

i dun like ppl who are full of themselves and changes too quickly.

2006-11-09T22:55:00.000-08:00

i always knew there will be pressure but i nv knew that when it comes, it would be so big to handle. haha. anyway, i am a optimistic person. i am okay now. so dun worry yea? test week is like so near. suddenly i need some air to breathe. zzz.

2006-11-01T05:47:00.001-08:00

trust and communication. the correct mindset.

love.

2006-10-28T08:00:00.001-07:00

one word to describe how i felt today. happy. anyway, went to tampines, she went to her friend house while i went to library to study. damn, i was said by the librarian, thus maybe my mood was affected and therefore i only studied for one chapter. went to walk walk around tampines alone. was damn bored lah, i think i walked for 2 hours while waiting for her. phobia of tampines already. went to eastpoint to pet safari cause got sudden urge to see pets. man, i love dogs. but they look so damn pitiful in cages. haha, dropped by kemangan to see the guys play soccer and went home. bah. sounds boring rite? doesnt matter. i enjoyed myself.

dar, thanks for everything today. i promised i will always be there for you no matter what.

this week had its sad happenings too. but thinking of which, why bother to say. so yea, let it be the past. haha. test week is coming soon.

2006-10-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

When you are on board a train, you will always remind yourself that you can't eat regardless of how hungry you are. Have you asked yourself why is that so? Is it because of the rules set by SMRT? Or is it because you feel you must be considerate towards the feelings of others? Probably because of both reasons. But thinking about it, if someone were to eat something in a train, would you really stop him? Despite the fact of "NO EATING OR DRINKING FINE $500" sign is there. weird huh. I mean, why put the sign? Who's going to claim the $500 bucks from the person? Haha. I am not sayng that all the people who eat in the train are wrong. I am just saying that some signs are really useless.

That's my point and I know I am talking crap.

Anyway, went to vivocity today. Woa, the place is big, but seriously, nothing really attracts me there. Haha.

And the world goes round and round. Week 8 is coming. Yay!

2006-10-20T04:35:00.001-07:00

bah. everytime i wanna post i have to come in to mozilla firefox to post. cause my internet browser doesnt work for this stupid beta thing and i dunno how to switch it back to the normal one. so its frustrating. so tadah.

i am truly disgusted as to humans actually care for themselves. how they fend for themselves when they are in the wrong actually. okay, not all humans are. but most of them rite? i mean we do get AHAHAHA sometimes. but when it comes to being severe, it irritates ppl. so dun ever think of overdoing it. cant ppl like them try to think of other ppl and accept the truth and dun be so complicated? its only in school, gosh, i dunno what will happen when we are out there in the society earning money. and i still recall during buddhist lesson, the monk say:" u have gathered enough karma to come into this world as a human being , so cherish it." bah. what crap. human beings are scary. too bad i am one too, so i will try my best to live life to make ppl happy as much as i can. i wun be AHAHAHA as much as possible.

haha, above para, i guess will ignite some sparks that may turn into flames. but nvm. this is my blog. i blog what i want.

had gastric flu twice in two months. how cool is that.

so as you can see, i had a lousy week.

2006-10-14T17:36:00.000-07:00

I dunno why but I got the sudden urge to blog. Anyway, this week had been fabulous. With my five. Gossips, jokes, everything lah. Haha. came back today from “class gathering" yest. went to expo for a innovation exihibtion, truthfully I was quite amazed. Haha. Went airport to eat, not bad lah, cheap and nice. Swensens yummy rasin still rocks my socks. yest's outing made me feel.. I dunno. But this is the time where I truly feel I belong to the class. Haha, it may feel weird to say this but I am happy in this trip lah. Thanks kokping for organizing.

went out with her today to watch rob b hood. some hiccups along the way. dar, remember dun do this to me already okay. dun let history repeat itself. anyway, rob b hood was nice. nice plot. nice acting. nice kung fu. haha. it's worth watching lah. but , 19 bucks for two tix is abit expensive. haha.

Life. Vulnerable as it can be.

2006-10-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

i think i will just update every once a week starting from now. haha. so yea, this weeks has its ups and downs too. i had pms from wed, and thanks to those ppl that bothered to hear me out. lots of things happen in school. had some gatherings. stupid haze. stupid flu that i am having now too! argh.

anyway, the memorable thing abt this week was the musical! meli's musical, to me, was fabulous. i love the songs, they are so meaningful. haha. so i promised meli i will buy the album when it is out. =D

went to study with her today. saw the judges of the jue dui superstar. okay lah, i admit li wei song is handsome. but the important point is, they just dun care their image lah. talk loudly, laugh loudly. haha. nvm. and kenneth and tze shuen, tzeshuen hair dun look like li fei hui. trust me. haha.

man, my stomach is feeling damn hot. i think its because of the bbq food during dinner.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WEIHWANG AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIQI!

2006-10-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

didnt update for a long time. like 7 days . haha.

anyway, today marks the end of school week 1 and my 18th birthday. my god, i am like finally 18. haha. that's cool.

let me start my thanks first yea... those who msg me, in order, mah monster!, pei ann, chun hwee, tze shuen, valerie, kenneth, keru, jiayin, kaiwen, ying jie, aichia, huifen,ah yuen, weihwang, huimin, meipeng,sophia, shuxian. lol. i am happy lah. like so many ppl msg me. haha.

those who tagged me, meli, mah monster, jt, aichia, feng yi. thanks lots.!

anyway, sher was asking me, are u happy? that's one question that i am still pondering now. and i still haven got the ans.

okay, abt school, its been a tiring week. damn tired. it isnt good having timetable which ends at 5 almost every day. trying to catch up what i have been learning this week. damn chim. shit lah. at least i promise my self i wun pon unnecessarily. hehe. let's see how week 2 goes.

dar, we can do this de. let's just perserve and see how it will go okay. if u really need me, i promise i will be there. regardless of what deal we have made. =D[

2 more mins, and my birthday will end with a full stop.

2006-09-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

I am gonna scold those ppl who write in their blog:" I wish to die, just let me die or I wish I was nv born in this world."

eh, *puts a loser sign on my forehead* read my hand. Wake up and get a life loser. Cherish life. Since u are already born in this so called pathetic world of yours, then live with it. Dun deny the fact that u are quite blissful compared to those whose lives are much more worse than you. Thanks.

reason for today's scolding is because someone jumped from my blk today. When I look down from my flat, and the police removed that stupid tent, what I saw, I promise you wun like it. or yea, did I mention I saw the police turned the corpse over? No? Okay. You wun like that sight of it also. You want details? Ask me personally and I will tell you personally. At that point of time, it set me in deep thoughts. I realized that even if you die, you should die beautifully cause since you were born beautifully, end it the same way. And to do that, die naturally. What for end your life and have so many ppl whispering or gawking at you? Argh, I hate that sight.

and to think that when i came home from grandma's house, it didnt happen yet. and i was playing comp and my mum was taking a nap, my bro was slacking around, and that someone jumped. makes me think in this world, how many ppl are ending their lives every min. isnt it scary?

bah. cherish life.

and to think i was going to say what a boring sunday it was gonna be. been reading my post entries and blog hopping the whole morning. and yea, counting down to school start.

2006-09-21T18:17:00.000-07:00

U FUCKING SHIT. STOP HAVING THE YOU WANT AND YOU WILL GET IT ATTITUDE! FUCK YOU. WAKE UP YOUR STUPID IDEAS! YOU THINK YOU WANT IT MEANS YOU CAN GET IT? STOP BEING A NON MALE CREATURE AND WHINE NON STOP! STOP BEING A MUMMY'S BOY AND HIDE BEHIND HER BACK EVERYTIME WHEN YOU CANT GET WHAT YOU WANT.

2006-09-18T11:45:00.000-07:00

its saddening to see the red light lit up. its even more saddening to see stupid judges demolishing ppl's dreams. what exactly are they looking for? no one knows. but its damn weird that some shit can even have the green light light up in their faces. crap.

min and eileen, its okay. there is still next year yea!

school's starting in a weeks time. time to face the shitty timetable.

yays.

2006-09-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

i know two superstar friends. even one of them is my buddy lah~!

cool?

it is. *big grin on the face!*

2006-08-31T14:17:00.000-07:00

class chalet ended yest morning. it was fun. the games, the food, the craps, the cycling, the indian rojak, the carrot cake, the no voice ppl. the hard floor, the matteress, the pillows. isnt it terrific? thru this class chalet, i appreciate my class ppl more. on the way back from the chalet, i suddenly thot :" what will happen if we are gonna be seperated in 3rd year? " thinking of which, as much as some of us dun like some of the ppl in our class, we still will miss each and everyone of them rite? dpfm 1a/02, 2a/02... so fast, two years have passed liao rite? its time we should let go of the differences and live together as a class. =)

training suck yest. 3 words summarised it all. =)

2006-08-27T20:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN!

my. u are 18. i am so god damn jealous. shucks. anyway, no problem abt today! =D.

i aint feelin good. hope tml class chalet will cheer me up.

你在哪里？

2006-08-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAR!

update update. been busy and lazy. that why didnt update. haha. but ppl who cared, i.e those who tagged at my tagboard, i am still doing okay! i aint depressed! when was i depress... no! as usual, things happen, but somethings cant be said here lah. last paper turn out to be on thurs! damn! argh! after thurs, its fun the whole way. wee! thurs come come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAR!

2006-08-13T21:35:00.000-07:00

lots of stuff haven been happening, good, bad, unhappy, happy, stupid , clever? stress, unstress.

life really do sux sometimes.

bah, i dunno what am i blogging abt.

.u ssim

2006-08-04T05:48:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i post already, whatever. nobody cares anyway.

no school today. went to hougang to eat kway chap. went polyclinc to check my back. heng no probs. went mjr... went home. some hiccups along the way. blah.

to you: i thought through what was done and what should have been done. i really apologise for making u feel all the pressure and tired from all this stupid nonsense. i am a lousy bf but i am working hard on it.. i know i am the one that is creating all this stupid stir ups and i really apprieciate you for all yr understanding k. i will change. i will. sorry for making u insecure. i swear i wun make it happen again. i love you. i really do.

been listening to F.I.R new song called -
天天夜夜

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever
Ever survive　
How do I　How do I　
How do I live

当你的泪在微笑中滑落　
回忆的风　吹着我走　
我却情愿停留

当一颗心到时间的尽头　
呼吸也回头
可是我记得　
你给我的梦

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在　
放过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我对你看到未来
So， how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you

当世界都遗忘我的时候　
你的一切对我来说　
经过才能拥有
我应该以为一份真爱的背后　
总觉得不会有　
心痛的时候
跟伤痛的感受
每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在
走过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我跟你看到未来　
So， how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you

Oh， Tell me now ~~
每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在
走过伤害
我会走开
是永远都灿烂的爱

这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
How do I live How do I live
How do I live without you
Without you

是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
So How do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you
How do I live without you
How do I live without you ~

2006-07-31T23:48:00.000-07:00

came back from singa mania 2006.. woots. i love beat box. like seriously. i feel like learning. haha, anyway, some contestants are really good, for instance, there is this girl called melissa lim lah, then this guy called faliq.. the rest, still okay lah. so yea, after that the gang were deciding where to go for dinner when meli's mum said :" let's go dinner!" was like ... huh... 7+4 =11 ppl? in the car? its a 7 seater, but 11 ? woa, okay. we managed to squeeze in and was like so damn excited. haha. so we went to a place called dunno what at tiong bahru for steamboat. man, it is nice. haha. better than those that i ate near my grandma's house (fyi, its quite famous).. thanks uncle lim for the treat and the ride too!! haha, mic, if u are reading, remember ah, low profile. haha.

sometimes, all i need is just an sms. from you.

2006-07-30T19:15:00.000-07:00

okay. whatever, i dun wanna hide it anymore. paper cant wrap fire de lah. so here goes, i am attached. so dun grinning at me or whatever lah. i dun wanna hide it anymore.. wahaha.

anyway, yest went to support meli gig at jurong east. man, i say her grp is the best lah! all the songs were nice, at least i heard it before lah. that beat box.. man, i wanna learn lah!! where can i learn ah? haha. went to pizza hut after that for dinner. like so nice lah.. i haven had pizza for a long long time.. haha. oh yea, saw zhiyang and eunice olsen. haha.

today. i simply love today. went out with her to study lah.. studied for like two hours? at least its better than staying at home and not even study abit. haha. so we were kinda restless and walked around. haha. i simply love today.

her: thanks for everything okay. i hope u enjoyed today as much as i do. =) sms u everything i wanna say le. so.. haha. take care!

i love today!

2006-07-28T21:15:00.000-07:00

bah. i dunno what to blog. haha. i think i made a fool of myself today.

the scenario:

Chen Hao sir tell me to general office find mdm tan, so went. then at the foyer saw valerie mei. was smiling at her when suddenly i fell, paT! what the hell lah, in my uniform somemore. so malu! pick myself up and walk damn fast away, without realising my score sheet fell. haha! stupid me.

there. but what the hell am i publising myself cause i malu myself? like what the hell rite?

2006-07-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

already i dun feel good, and u have to do all yr nagging? well done. *raise my hands up and clap like wayne rooney".

school made me realise i got lots to catch up. and its like two weeks away. well done. *raise my hands up and clap like wayne rooney" (again).

2006-07-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

2d ppl that are gonna support meli on this sat! pls meet at 2 sharp at aljiunied platform! latecomers will have to pay for dinner! so pls be punctual!!! thanks...spread this around to those who not visiting my blog de.

anyway, i didnt go to school today. but i went out in the morning. hmmm, shall not reveal where i went. but i love today. =) . if u wanna know, ask me personally, i shall tell u if u are trustworthy. =)

to u: thanks for everything. i know i may not be what u wanted in some occasions, situations, things. but thanks for bearing with my nonsense. seriously, my feelings for u is true. trust me like how i trust u k.. =) . love ya lots.

okay, if u are able to read the above stuff and wanna continue to say, ee.. mushy whatever, haha, why u bother cause its not meant for u. thanks.

oh man. i love today.

2006-07-24T21:50:00.000-07:00

i am lagging behind in my studies lah.. mus buck up le.. like what yingjie say.. dun dream! wake up. but hor, i keep repeating what i say de lah.. so argh.. i dunno.. but i just feeel so tired when i sit infront of the study desk.. any solutions?

i miss her. =)

2006-07-23T22:40:00.000-07:00

i just dun have the secure feelin. i dunno why i keep feelin like .. i dunno.. argh. i hate this lah. its like being lifted in spirits and slam back to the floor again. i can say i know where my heart is heading to.. but i just dunno or not sure whether its correct or not. i need assurance, but it isnt anywhere near me.

2006-07-22T23:52:00.000-07:00

school anniversary was finally over yest.. lots of photos. lots of scoldings. lots of stupid stuff. but it all turns out fine in the end.. haha. after the anni went to kallang mac with junpei and peiyi.. hmm, half way out i realised i forget to return my key. so me and junpei walk back to mjr lah and back to kallang mac. saw weihwang, wen min , raymond and yx there. there was a commotion abt something lah.. but nbm. haha. me and wen and min and wh stayed back and talk, been a long time lah, that's why i reached home at 12. haha.

today! today is fun! haha. steph came back to singapore without me knowing and only junpei telling me she went back mjr for anni. then steph ask me to go out lah, since we are like long lost bro and sis already. man! i mus admit that its been a long time since i last saw her. haha.and everytime i go out with her, it will be a totally darn new experience. haha. that is for me to know and for u to find out. whaaha. went for dinner, search for a damn long time cause we wanted a place with buffet. so we walked from ms to suntec and finally settled on siam kitchen lah. haha. got two pics of the food. but i lazy to upload lah.. talk.. crap.. it is fun. esp with steph..haha. miss her laughter man.

some things i am pondering... some ppl, they are at fault in the first place, they do nt cherish in the first place, when all is gone already, then they come back and do stupid things and make the other party feel terrible. pls lah, u think what, arcade machine meh? u game over, still can insert token and play ah.. get a life and get out lah. stop making ppl feel terrible.

i am suppose to do my ct report, but elearning is not working leh.. sianzation.

2006-07-19T23:15:00.000-07:00

okay! i promised peiyi i will blog, so here am i. went to school, reached there an our late. was greeted by a stench of vomit in the class room.phew , and i know my day aint gonna be smooth sailing.

reached mjr in the afternoon, one word to summarise the goh. damn disgusting.cadets, if u are reading this, pls, for god sake, wake up. i dun give a damn for the rest, but u are my goh. like i said, if u are good, u are good. if u are lousy, then u better do something abt it. wake up.

went for dinner at kallang mac. apparently, some things crop up lah. but i dunno what also. so its okay! went to kallang mac with jordan, shuting and junpei, met peiyi and her sis there. haha. crap abt stuff. mjr tchers etc. ncc led by CLT see weijie came into mac. lol, they came and played a joke. okay. i kena the joke lah. nbm. went home after that.

sometimes, what do we want in life. looking at my cadets now, make me feel like i dunno how to describe the feelin... look at my study table, i just feel so lost. okay. pppl may say i am whining here, but isnt a blog meant for whining? dun u whine at yr blog sometimes also? nbm. i live my life. i dun need to care what ppl tink of me. =)

2006-07-17T18:48:00.000-07:00

back from atc already. man, it was good, the feeling to go back as a CI.. haha. so cool. campfire was okay. didnt really get the fun out of it. spagetii( dunno how to spell) was damn nice for first day dinner. tee yan is a great coordinater , thumbs up to you bro.

some points to take note during this camp that i felt:

1. area 12 discipline level needs to be increased.
2. urgency is not there.
3. teamwork.

slept the whole of yest, was damn tired after only sleeping 5 hours for two days. woke up this morning, went ta school, was damn feverish, went back home. slept. my throat is so hot, i think its fa yan or something.

i spoke to mrs wong today. suddenly, it dawned on me. i am who i am gonna be cause of my actions. thanks mrs wong.

2006-07-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

update update. damn i cant get the notes inside.

anyway, cherri house on sun was abit dull. i dunno why. but just doesnt seem to work like the F5 went lah. haha. mon, just didnt go to school. cant stand the tiredness, so went bedok, took mc, with weihwang and meli. went lunch. went to watch recycle where i spend 30% sleeping. went bugis. went home. darn, went home, my bed. cool rite? haha.

pls lah, quote meihui, its quite frustrating to go everybody blog and say zidane is crazy. i dun think he is. think abt it, it is his last world cup and i know he wants to end it beautifully. isome times, things are hard to control. esp tempers and feelings.

man, i am tired. zzz.

2006-07-10T03:03:00.000-07:00

i think the slap is worth. it. at least it wakes u up a little from the dream that u are having for so long. think abt the freedom that u have enjoyed for this 3yrs or so. think abt the stupid excuses that u gave. wake up okay. the world is not yours. u just dunno how remorse is spelt.

there. i said my piece again. hope u read it.

2006-07-08T22:00:00.000-07:00

some of the top 12.

weihwang, yr paul twohill. haha!

the top 12.

the bag. quite nice.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_jQvVPsUrb8
here's a link to the vid that i took. damn blur. turn yr speakers to the min before u play.

2006-07-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, I HAVE ONE ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE! I SAW GAYLE AND JASMINE TODAY! woooT!! haha. after the school anniversary rehearsal, went to bugis with junpei, was planning to go home already when we pass by this stage, and its SINGAPORE IDOL TOP 12! haha. so we just stayed there, i long wanted to see gayle and jasmine in person. and man! they are pretty. okie weihwang, i saw paul twohill too. he look more.... muscular in person. everybody was like so high lah!

then before they came in, the mc said: ladies and gentlemen, i just got the cue, i present u, yr SINGAPORE IDOL TOP 12!! and the crowd goes... ahhh!!! the funny thing was i saw a bunch of macpherson ppl holding cans for donations shouting JASMINE JASMINE. lol. then came the (i label it the bag throwing session) bag throwing session, each idol will throw one goody bag (the singapore idol bag) with his/her signature on it lah, all the idols were like throwing so near to the front audience.. and i was telling junpei:" walao, cannot take de lah" then there is this guy call joakim, he threw it towards my side, and i jumped up and snatch it. whaha! then i realised that one uncle was holding on to it as well, i look at him and he say:" take lah.." haha! cool. wahaha! but i wan the gayle bag. lol, junpei and i tot we can sign on his poster and my bag but in the end the queue was cut off. but its okie. i am contented! haha.went home. too tired to go soccer.

i swear to myself. i will start mugging from mon onwards. no more play. no more fun. study study study. so ppl, pls try not to ask me out. thanks.

life, a miraculous thing. amidst the number of faces on the streets, have u ever noticed that all of the ppl have different faces, i mean like duh rite. but those gods or buddhas or whatever up there that created these faces, sure are creative isnt it? they have lots of designs. lol. crap.

will post the pics up later. my camera only 1.3 mp la.. so bear with it. =)

2006-07-02T14:00:00.000-07:00

With Sir fidaus and some of the trainers. informal. woot. (i look weird in this.) lol.

With Sir fidaus and some of the trainers. formal. woot.

some of the trainers. jing jing, yvonne, joey, liyana, ming hao. u guys rock.

2006-07-02T13:45:00.000-07:00

hello~ finally i changed my blog skin. haha. its been quite sometime since i updated. thanks to those ppl who tag.

syf 2006 is finally over.Although i only went for 3 trainings, i met some really cool ppl. ppl like yvonne, liyana, soon yang, ming hao, lian yu, some HOs, FI sameer. so many. hmm, i enjoyed my self. though there are times where there are uphappy moments. but its okie. u guys rock. the syf parade segment ppl, u rock. i still cant believe i took photo with sir firdaus! god. sir firdaus,our chek gu, a person that i respect.

i dun give a damn whether i am doing the correct thing or not. i believe that once u are given the responsibility to do something, pls be committed. esp if there are eyes around. i believe in responsibility. what ever, like one of my friend said, aiyah, dun need care them lah. true. in the end, u are the one that is suffering. u wun make me feel guilty. trust me.

apart from the para above, some little things. i hate being on or off. i hate being treated like a puppet. pls. for god sake. so be it okay. so u wan everybody to bow down to u like a servant? fuk off. thanks.

apart from the two para, everything is okie. will upload the pics!

okie, next up, school anniversary training and atC! aha.

2006-06-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

dun freaking blame me in future okay. blame it on yr own freakin attitude. blame it on yourself.

already i have to deal with the freakin headache the whole day. and i have to deal with all this crap. *clap clap*

dad flew to thailand today. bring me back my germany jersey okay. =)

sometimes, its not only abt doing what u are told. its abt volunteering yrself too. think abt it. dun even live in yr pathetic world. it doesnt revolve around u only. get a life. thanks.

it is not u unless u feel its u.

pls verify first. dun assume.

2006-06-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

finally i will take a breather and blog.

hmm.. some words to summarise what i have done this week.

shoot.
sing.
the zhao sia.
the wind.
the tiring feets.
attitude.
committment.
rich ppl.
high class ppl.
coffee blender.
politics.
friends.
family.
shouts.
dinner.
elearning.
mosqitos.
idiots.
bastards.
nice ppl.
the smoke.
ghost stories.
incoming free calls.

quite a few huh.

k. i will end here. nite.

2006-06-06T23:29:00.000-07:00

ladies and gentlemen, its 06/06/06 today. cool huh. nothing special happen anyway lah, went for presentation today. went home and slept again. wee. its shiok. sleepin is good.

i just blog becausee its 06/06/06. =)

2006-06-05T23:23:00.001-07:00

i seriously need a break here before i go do my stuffs. tons to complete. have been quite lazy and busy to update lah.

sat soccer was okay. made so many bloopers as usual. i need to improve.

sun, went to pc show. finally got my mmc card. now my phone is 512! ha. went to the zouk flea market in the morning. man, a first time that i went in a pub. its nice. but its crowded. with the smoke smell.. oh i cant stand it lah. argh. but the ppl there got style. serious. cool. woa.

today! accompanied them to HTAA, boring. went to work after that. met these two seniors gladys and shimin. nice ppl. mamange to sell 10 boxes. haha! extra 2 bucks commission. first timer not bad liao lah. so roughly, one hour i earn 9 bucks. ha!

thanks wh, heng, peiyi, huimin, yingjie, sher and von for tagging!

von, i nv talk to u for so long liao lah! lao pa, miss the times in sec school where we talk abt everything. ha.

2006-06-05T23:23:00.000-07:00

2006-06-03T00:15:00.000-07:00

sorry for the lack of updating. thinking of it, why the hell am i apologising for? its my blog. i should be happy with what i do with it. anyway, no one bothers to come here either. so forget it lah. ha.

life has been kinda monotone. finally my tests are all finished. no use regretting. i think i will score for one or two. ha. went out to walk walk with ts today. ql left after a while. saw so many things that i wanna buy lah. that shirt. that pants. that boots. that mmc card. the shoes. so many freaking things. man , i sound like a gay lah. like those little girls that will go wowing after shopping. but man! i need money.

gonna start work on mon. hope i meet nice ppl lah.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MEI!

2006-05-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

you and me. does it have to be this way?

2006-05-27T20:25:00.000-07:00

just woke up from my sleep. was at my uncle funeral last nite. didnt slept a wink to accompany my aunt. studied. talk. walk around. yea, that why i msg some of you ask whether u sleep already not. wanna find somebody to talk.

the funeral today. tears. sad faces. screaming. shouting. this made me think alot. life, does it have to be like this? the monk says, “人生就是这样，有一天一定要走这条路。”. i told you before my aunt son is austistic. which means he doesnt know his father has passed away. the scene where he was smiling when he saw his mum crying was heart wretching. sometimes, i duno if its good to be lke this, without a care in this world. u live for living. you dun have to worry abt feelings, abt studies. abt anything. is that good?

i am still not feelin that good. maybe i am just tired.

you, seems like you are getting along fine. so yea, it is truly over.

2006-05-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvfcC0SBRUc&eurl

if u are a fan of my blog u will notice i change my blog song. again. yeap. was looking through friendster. when i was at jikoum profile, this vid (above link)the song is damn nice lah. it may be quite long already lah.. but it sure has its meaning. look at the chinese words in the vid. didnt do much studying at home lah. shit.

2006-05-25T23:48:00.000-07:00

finally i know the truth. well, at least i know it. thanks for being in my life for this short while. =)

are u gone? i think so.

2006-05-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

suddenly i thot of this question, what do u normally do when u are in the lift alone? sing some songs? shout like nobody business? ppl staying in the hdb knows that the lifts do not have camera installed rite. was at the lift lobby today, when i saw this notice.

"Pls do not urinate in the lift. Hidden camera has been installed in lifts. "

the first thot that came into my mind was. shit. i cant sing in the lift anymore. the only place i can sing where nobody would critise me.

the 2nd thot that came in was abt what a lecturer told us abt:" there's this guy who urinates in the lifts. and he didnt know that the camera was there, and he continued his business, and the trtuh abt this cases are, so far.. no couples or girls have been caught doing this. " =)

the 3rd thot. damn, the guy hu urinates inside, yr house no toilet bowl ah? take a plastic bag lah. u deprive ppl with no singing talents to sing u know..

there.

got quite a sad news this morning. uncle, although i am not very close with u, u are someone that i respect. i still remembered when my aunt said:" aiyah, i wun get married in this life of mine de" you step into her life. the sweet life of two of you didnt last that long, although you had a austitic son, you nv gave up on them, your son, your wife. you had to work hard to drive taxi every nite.. to earn the household keep. you have to endure. yet, you didnt give up. sadly, because of cancer.. you went away. quan jin said to himself when u are gone, " papa yao qu hen yuan hen yuan de ti fang" although he is like this, he is quite mature than last time already. so dun worry. you have my respect. rest in peace uncle.

i noe u dun wanna talk to me.maybe you are pissed at me , or you have probs and u dun feeel like talking, but at least let me know okay? dun be like this. just tell me why. pls. 想一想吧。

2006-05-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

pon school today. just.. didnt felt like it. it mus be the small flu. anyway, met min to study at suntec today. she pon too. haha. guess wad happen? yea, i can see or read what is in yr mind, she is late. again. not too bad this time. 1/2 hour only. went to study. now, ql dun give me that kinda thot again and say:" study? hahah. sure nv de" i did. and i am proud to announce that i studied the whole 6 chapters that are gonna be tested on mon. min went to tk company for job interview. found out that the company quite nice. but its just not really suitable for me. =) went to army market to get my stuff. went home. damn, me and min are just not fated to get the psp. =)

thanks guys. i am okie already. so dun worry abt a thing.

enough is enough. forget it. if that is the way u wan it to be, fine. i dun wanna be the guy that will always be afraid. think abt it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUEN!

2006-05-22T22:55:00.000-07:00

(= yot a sa em taert tsuj uoy. laminim si dnim ruoy ni em fo level ecnatropmi eht taht demrifnoc dna dezilaer i.

i have tutorials to complete. i have topics to study. but seriously. when i face the books alone, i
would slam it shud. u asked me. wad i meant. i dunno how to explain to you. *sigh* am i fated to have this kinda life?

2006-05-22T22:15:00.000-07:00

our friendship offically ended at 10.12pm on 22/05/06.

does it?

他们说喜欢一个人，就要大胆说出来。

屁话。

2006-05-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

maybe i am just tired.

maybe i think too much.

maybe it was the things.

maybe .. its just you.

blog readers, gossip abt that you for as much as possible. i dun give a damn. haha, my blog begining to sound like somebody blog. haha. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERILYN!

2006-05-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

okie, below is a stupid post by me. so if u dun understand it, dun bother okay. anyway, ts and i pondered. think and think. finally. haha. pray that we will win tonite! pls!! i need that $7 (thanks to ts, should be around 20 + de lo!). and anyway, this blog song Because of you by kelly clarkson may be old.. but when i was listening to helme ipod todae, i chanced upon this song, and it made me think of you. =)

praying.

god, she is pretty.

2006-05-17T20:01:00.000-07:00

dun make me detest u more and more. dun lick my boot okay. doesnt help. it makes me sick.

2006-05-16T18:02:00.000-07:00

is it really worth it? i dun think so.

2006-05-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

thanks min for booking the place.

thanks yx for forking out the money too. ( i understand yr situation)

thanks ql kenneth wh ts yx for being understanding.

some things are better left unsaid. while some things are better done said. some things u dunno wad to do with it, while some things, you are sure u wan it this way. some things, after thinking that you wanna do it this way, upon going to start on it, you retract it back. its hard, to make decisions in life, to mantain yr relationship, not to hurt yr friends feeling. but actions still reflects on a person's well-being and stuff ritE?

to me, a relationship involves both parties, if either parties wanna give up on it, or is tired, holding on doesnt help either. i noe i may not be qualified to advice on this, but think abt it. aint it true? why make yrself miserable? why make yrself depressed? telling yrself, i am holding on cause i love her is nonsense, tell yrself this, i hold on to make myself hate her more. wad ever it is, relationship doesnt only involve a person's heart, it invovles two.

sorry that i shoot my bloody mouth off without thinking whether is that true or not. but seriously, whether u wanna listen or not, i have been having that feelin for quite sometime. i tried. i did try not to agitate u always. i know i am irritating. sometimes, i only wanted more attention. and i dun think sorry will help really much this time. everytime something happens, i dunno how would u feel. but i am damn sad. haiz, hope you will understand. sorry. i always cared abt how u felt.

things, they happen again and again.